is it sugaring time? Cuz the sap is flowing!

i need to pinch myself, i wake up and go through the day not sure if its all just a dream or if i really am living the life i am. i hate to say that being with the right person makes all the difference because i don't believe people need to be with someone to be a whole person. however since i got together with my wonderful boyfriend things seem to be coming together very nicely. i know that the changes i made in my life (see previous blog) are probably a big reason my life is going in the directions it is. but things since him have been really good, i am happy. really happy.
without going into details i have always tried so hard to make my partner happy that i lose myself and i stop doing anything to make myself happy. i will admit i have had a few fairly traumatic relationships. i really didn't think it was possible to be with someone and not feel like part of me was hidden or left in the cold. or to feel like the person i am with cares as much about me and the relationship as they care about themselves. i am not really sure if its a change in myself that its happening or if its the person i am seeing.
i know that the person i am seeing has always been special to me, for the longest time just as a friend. but only really a friend at work since we didn't spend any time outside of work unless it was a chance meeting or a bbq with mutal work friends. my feelings for him were there but not acted upon since he had a relationship of his own. when he moved out of the relationship i hoped something would happen, even a slight glimmer of interest would have fueled the fire in my world. but it didn't happen so i let it go. i thought i had been mistaking the connection i felt for him. then 5 or 6 months later he and i were chatting and i invited him over to watch movies at my place. the first few times he came over were very tense and i was so upset because i thought for sure it was not going to ever happen with us and that i was a fool to even think it may have. then things finally started happening and my whole world changed. i have never be with someone so thoughtful and caring. i can sit and talk to him for hours and he listens to me. he listens even when i am sure he has heard the story before. he lets me choose restaurants because i want to eat light. he gets up and turns on the heat when the alarm goes off and comes back to bed because he really doesn't need to get up yet. he even took the garbage out to the curb when i forgot. he was just as worried about vienna when she hurt her back as i was. i am incredibly attracted to him and it only gets stronger day by day. i actually feel like i have missed out since he was out there and i just didn't find him till now. i want to make the very best of the rest of our lives.
i think that something happened and i got lucky, i am damn sure i will be making him the happiest he can be.